we're not moving to new house yet..
and also..
dad says we don't have to move out of here yet,don't need to move to another house..

since dad decided to let them extend..
so for awhile,thought we had to move again,since our tenant raise the price so much,again..
in the end,both compromised..

don't know if should be happy or not..
didnt rly want to move to another rental place because it'll be so troublesome and so rushed..
to find a place,and pack all the stuff again..
and then one year later,do it all again..
then it'll be moving house 3 times in 3 years..
luckily we dont have to go through it one more time..
yes,for tt i should be happy..

i think the old contract was supposed to be up till next week..
so by right,we could have move in to new house next week..
but now,we'll just have to stay here for one more year..

for the past few mths,i always thought and looked forward to moving to our new house..
to leave everything behind here..
but then the past few weeks..thought about moving to another rental place..
and didnt like the thoughts..
didnt know how the new place will be like,thought will be not as nice as here now..
and also..i guess i still cant bear to just leave all the memories behind here..
so short time here..1yr+ only..
but yet so much,so much memories here..
this place where i spent one of my happiest time of my life..

this place where there's so much footprints that ahgong left behind,everywhere..
all the memories around..
the drop off below my house..that first time tt ahgong drove me home and dropped me there..
how when i went up,still went to balcony and see him..
and tt blur ahgong was still there looking at his gps figuring his way back home..
the long road,pavement in..how tt ahgong walked me home..and he walked on the road instead,making sure i walk on the pavement..
that bench at the playground..the happiest night,the happiest children's day..
the void deck,where we walked past..where we first held hands..how we fumbled a little..
the lift,where he walked me to and waited for me go up..
the bus stops..that stretch of walkway there..where we waited for taxi..and the things we did there..
everything..all the places..
and in the house..how i quietly sneaked into the house from those late nights out..
my bedroom,my bed,living room,kitchen,balcony..
the places where i always talked to that ahgong on the phone,happily,smiling..just simply hold on to the ph,talking about nth,teasing each other,or just simply hear him sing and play the guitar..

i'm supposed to..
but i just cant bear to let go,cant bear to leave it here and go to a new place yet..

i guess that's one of the main reason why i'm happy with not moving yet..
when i should be dumping them all here..and forget them..
silly me still cant do it yet..
and i'm so scared of that day where we rly move out of here..
thinking of that day now,can feel the pain inside..
for fear that all the happy memories will slowly fade and will rly be left behind and gone forever..
cause i dont want to forget those happy memories..
don't want to forget those memories,as part of my life..
as part of my journey alone now,after that ahgong went on his seperate one now..
when it was supposed to be our long journey,one that we wanted to pei each other and walk together,into the future..

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