one year is jux gone so quickly.time flies!jux wan to post on this very last day.

thinking back 1yr ago, where everything was sooo nice?bt now, i guess everything wun be the same anymore.never ever going to be the same.

today is the last day of the so eventful,memorable yet also a nightmare 2007.
should i be glad or sad tt this yr is going to be over soon?haix.

but i guess i should be forward looking!2008 is smiling and waving at me!it will be a brand new beginning,a great new start!a even better better better and wonderful year ahead!!smile sarah smile!everything will be ok!

here's wishing everyone all the best in the upcoming brand new 2008!!smile everyday!!and throw away any troubles and live life happily!!

2008 would be the most wonderful year ever!


my favourite mr smiley veggie!


now,i know something that never runs out.
tears.

it rly jux cant stop..no matter hw hard i try..i tried crying n crying n crying but it jux wun run out..wad mux i do to not have tears..i'm rly tired of crying le..tired until i really hate myself for crying..why am i so stupid??cry for such stupid things..it's not worth it at all..bt i still cant help it..hoping tt i'll feel better..but it doesnt help at all..jux end up with swollen eyes..the pain inside is still burning.why am i so dumb again and again??this is not the first time tt sth like this happened.i jux cant believe it happened again.

hw i really wish tt there's nth called tears.

i think i'm a psychic..everything turn out to be what i thought will happen..and i really hate myself for tt.for understanding him so well,know wad he'll say..i thought tt he'll ask me conc on exams nx yr..n he really said tt..i cant believe it..and since i expected it,why didn't i stop right there..y hang on till so xin ku...and now,its worst..rly angry n v v sad for all the things he said..he dun even noe how much pain he hv inflicted on me..he jux like treat it as nth happened at all..rly rly rly hate him..dun even wan to see him anymore..dun understand his thinkings..he even said all the msging din mean anything at all..then wad were those msging??rubbish??jux crap??then why mux he be so misleading.disgusting!!!all these shd hv ended long ago huh..i'm jux the stupid one holding on to it huh..we should jux lead our own lifes huh..i will nv forget what u said.hw could u be sooo mean??

they all say it's good to end it here.is it?i dunno.i guess so.bt i'm glad i have all my frens with me..though only few noe n can an wei me..it's still v comforting.even though the pain is still there..one day it'll still go away huh..bt i guess it's going to take v v v long..cux i rly dunno hw to not think bout it..tried going out to nt think bout it..bt i almost cried out..rly cant take it..go into toilet then my tears will jux flow..been crying till i fall aslp..rly v tired le!!what am i supposed to do??i cant smile,laugh,whatever..sth's jux missing.goodness.....
sch's reopening soon!and nx yr is an impt yr.alvls!i dun wan this to affect my work!i mux and will still do well!!

now,i'm heading dearest auntie vic n ah ma's advice..think bout other stuff..0632 chalet frm 5th to 7th dec..was quite fun lar..and b4 going chalet..i was telling ah ma i'm so scared..dunno why..like sth bad going to happen..and it rly happened!i fell down on my knees right after i get off the bus at downtown!then,the 2nd night was so unbearable..felt so bad becux of wad he did..wanted so much to go home..even vomitted at night..haix..why is this hols so bad..

bt the time together with sotong clan n everyone else was still enjoyable..bbq-ed in the room instead cux of the weather..n everyone had fun!all these now hv becum memories le ba..i nv ever wan to forget them..maybe jux one part to forget.the part without him.

had xmas steamboat on xmas eve.was so nice to have everyone eating steamboat..though it was very messy n tiring..we all enjoyed it.i guess its another page of my life tt i'll nv ever forget ba..bt the next day,xmas,became sooo bad..shd be the worst xmas i've ever had ba..thought this yr was going to end n be my best yr..bt i'm sooo wrong..it's becum the worst,overnight.now, i cant wait for the yr to end..and have a totally new beginning..starting afresh..be smarter.and not blinded.

all the memories..


22nd nov!enchanted.






chalet'07


dearest sotong clan 1st full family pic!


really love 0632 to bits!missing u all already.=(


xmas steamboat.





i'm missing my own smile for the 1st time!
thks dearest auntie vic,ah ma and everyone!


must learn to smile from mr smiley veggie.haix.

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