holidays are finally here..bt i dun feel excited or happy at all now..everything hv been very depressing lar..still very bothered bout the dream..scared it really will happen soon lar..nt becux i'm scared of death or wad..is jux tt i really really cant bear n very scared to leave everyone...very scared hw my family will feel if the dream really happen....haix....wad can i do to forget the dream.....hv been trying very hard to forget things i dun wish to rmb..bt nth seems to work..i cant forget...esp forgetting some ppl..when i'm trying to forget tt someon..tt person suddenly appear infront of me on the bus lar...n my heart almost stopped for a sec...n it really hurt!though i tried to pretend as if nv see him to avoid the unnecessary embarrasement..think he saw me ba..think he noe i pretended lk nv see him..feel very bad..bt it would hv been really very awkward de lor..really wanted to hide myself tt very moment lar..bt couldn't do anything except for pretending tt i nv see him...y mux this happen to me..y cant everything jux end like tt..y mux it still be so coincidental??almost gt caught up with the previous bus de..bt in the end still missed it..hw gd would it be if i've taken tt previous bus!!the other time also missed the same previous bus n saw him!!why why why why why is this happening when we were NV NV MEANT TO BE TOGETHER?or is this nt the ending yet..??impossible..bt then y is these still happening..really hope tt i can forget everything...n let EVERYTHING come to an end......


another week gone again!!real fast!!one more week to go before the holidays start..though it wont really be a holiday since there are so many make up lectures and hv to study for mid yrs lar..sianx lor..bt at least dun hv to wake up so early every morning..=p sort of plan wad to do for the holidays le..1st 2 wks can slack n play abit..then aft tt mux study n prep for exams le..scary lar..bt nvm dun think bout it 1st..going to enjoy playing 1st..going to go sentosa with 0632 and kengx,man n bt ba..then going to eat sushi tei's buffet,seoul garden and many more to come..hahax..=p

i think i going to becum panda very soon le..the whole wk have been slping like at 12+,1+ lar..haix..really unbearable lar..dunno when will i collapse or give up lor..bt till then i hv no choice lor..guess hv to go on like this for another 1 and a half yrs..cant wait for it to be over..i've been quite scared recently..cux i had a bad dream..dreamt tt it was time for me to die..then in the dream i'm still very young still studying..study so much then die le when i haven do alot things yet..sure cant bear to leave my family,relatives n friends lar..some of my dreams will come true de lar..then i really really very scared tt this dream will come true.. really praying n hoping very hard tt it wont come true and i can quickly forget bout the dream cux it hv been bothering me quite alot..haix....

on a happier note..jux met up with kengx,man n bt ytd at cp for dinner since i ended late becux of chem spa....went to eat at pizza hut..=p then walked round awhile..then went home le since it was like 9+ le..

then at srg mrt..when i was on the escalator up...i was totally DISGUSTED by this uncle lar!!!i dunno whether it was accidentally or delibrate de lar..no matter wad it still gave me a great shock n really felt very disgusted lar!!!!when i walked out of the mrt then wan go up the escalator..i saw tt uncle which was like waiting there de..then aft awhile when i gt on the esclator..then he gt on n was behind me lar..luckily infront of me gt this guy n his child so i felt abit safe..if not i would hv walked up the escalator..then on the 2nd escalator up...tt uncle hands which was holding on to a ezlink card i guess...like strectched out n like touched my tighs there..above knee there lar..i was so shocked lar..jumped lar..then immediately turned to look at him..then his heads were bending down dunno doing wad..cant see properly cux apparently i only had 1 contacts on tt time..thenwhen i turned he also looked up as if nth happened lar..so i dunno whether izzit an accident or wad lar..so i nv scold him or wad..if his hands weren't holding on to the cards i would have scolded him or kicked him i guess..disgusting lar!!!!hw can man be so YUCKY n DISGUSTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!then gt out of the mrt station le..then faster walked to interchange..kp turning behind to mk sure he wasn't behind me or wad lor..luckily along the way still gt quite alot of ppl if nt i sure will be terribly scared lar!!this is nt the 1st time i'm disgusted by man le lor!!the other time i think this stupid man tried to tk pic of my tighs lar..!!was siting outside a shop..then my skirt was quite short..so crossed my legs..then this man in the other shop..was siting at a table..so he diagonally face me lar..then he tk out his hp...n he was holding it in an awkward manner lor!!he was diagonnally facing me..n then holding the hp quite high up also diagonally..if u r jux using the hp u wun hold until like tt de lor??bt then i also dunno whether was it true anot..so din dare go scold him..then i quickly walked into the shop..n he walked out of the shop lar!!luckily we quickly went off soon aft..WTH lor..disgusting man!!!!!

guess this wk hv been a very very very verybad wk lar..bad dreams..bad encounters..oh yar..also sort of gt scolded by bio teacher..when i merely was asking my fren a question lar!!wth lar!!!n my sis gt a new laptop!!!watever lor..jux becum i dun let her use the com..then she hv been bothering my parents to get her a laptop..she's only sec 2 n THERE'S DEFINETLY NO NEED to get a laptop lor..sec 2 dun even hv much proj or nd to use the com so much lor..!!!!!she'll only go online n tok 4eva with her frens on msn and do stupid things..even if nd com so badly..she shdn't hv been given a laptop lor..!!!hp laptop somemore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!even when i slping.....she use her laptop n then type until as if she very pro like tt...then wake me up n i'll be so irritated n cant even slp n rest lar!!!!!!!!ARGH!!!!i've been VERY VERY VERY IRRITATED with her lar.!!!!!she keeps toking on the ph for like few hrs EVERYDAY!!!!toking crap!!!then when my parents nt at hm...she can like tok the WHOLE DAY lar!!!!!she use the ph then i'll be disconnected n cant use com lar!!!!!!then i'll be very irritated n cant conc lar......shouted at her manyt times le..then last wk aft i scolded her again..my mother come n scold me lar..say wad always shout n scold my siblings...say i dun respect them.....wth lor..if they dun respect me..y should i respect them!!and they dun even listen if we tok to them nicely..tell mybro dun do this or tt nicely..he only argue tok crap..then mk me irritated then i scold them..then my mum scold me!!!then by bro hv had such bad attitude lar..then my mother also nv really scold him lor!!!!!!!so there's no pt..shouting at them only allow me to vent out some of my anger lar!!!then i argued back n said tt my sis kp using ph..my mum also nv scold her or wad lor..the moz jux nag abit..then tt time i only tok on the ph like lesser time than my sis..then she was like unhappy le then was suspiciuous of me le lar!!!it's always my siblings' fault tt i always get scolded de lar!!!!unfair lar!!!i hate this lar....

hope tt after this wk..after all these bad things are gone..gd things will come......


one week is gone again...!this whole week have been a blast again..rushing hmwk..gpp..studying for test..sianx lor..FINALLY!!today's a holiday..vesak day!!going to have a longer wkend..yays!!finally can relax n rest abit le..have been slacking the whole day..feels weird lor..keep having the feeling tt there's alot to do..mux rush..hahax..funny lar..bt nvm..dun care..=p tml then start with work..

gt back econs n bio test le.!!surprisingly..i passed both!!yays!!so happy lor..passed econs think becux we gt the more lenient teacher..if we gt the other teacher..think like the other classes..the whole class will fail lar!!and get even as low as 2/25 lor!!as for bio..was really hoping and praying tt i will pass..cux if i fail bio then i sure die de lor..cux i already failed chem..so cant fail another sci..so..thank god i passed bio!!by 1 mark only lar!!hahax..bt nvm..i'm very happy already!!=p so scary lor..the teacher gave out the pp according to the marks de lar..highest was 28..then 24,23,22,21...then i gt 21 leh!!so near to the failing grade lar..bout half the class failes..then was waiting n waiting lar..heart almost jumped out le lor..finally its over lar..so scary!!really happy!!!!actually i gt 22 de..then the teacher had some moderations to ensure tt everyone's grade was close???some had marks added while some deducted lar!!the teacher took away 2 marks then plus 1 mark lar..so end up i gt 1 mark less..haix..bt nvm..i still passed!!enough le..=p mux mk sure for mid yr mux do well also..if nt promo sure die de...

then ytd we had school thing..some tile painting thing..to put in the parade square de..went around looking at other class de..some quite nice n some nt really nice de..think our class de quite nice n outstanding lar..its a heart shape..then tingting was saying like doing some charity show thing lor..hahax..here's wad our class did lar..nice!!



then after school went to j8 with wanlin to get jiayu's present..then aft tt meet daphanie to get mother's day present..hahax..both 2 pearly braclets for my mother n auntie..n a cup with the words 'world's greatest grandma' on it..really dunno wad to buy lar..buy until dunno wad to buy...somemore had headache the whole day ytd lar..sianx..

then at night went to have early mother's day dinner at some dim sum restaurant..dim sum..my favorite!!esp siew mai..yum yum..=p


oh yar..n I finished my napfa le!!! Tt means no more afternoon pe le..yays..then my earliest day would be thus..end at 12.15!!yays..=p now whole body aching again lar..n today laughed so much lor..was reading gp lecture notes during break..then one part was on commercialism of sports..then the notes stated tt the highest paid sportsman is tiger woods..in 2004, he earned 78million lar..and earning US$148/sec!!!so its bout S$250++/sec,its like u can buy or change a hp per sec...then in 10 sec..u'll earn $2500..can buy laptop le lar..wth lor..on the other hand..it would tk a thai garment worker 38 YEARS to earn what TW collect from nike every day lar..tt's like so pathetic lor..n i really pity these workers lar..then we were all laughing n laughing..thinking bout hw much we hv earned by jux siting there n toking lar..hahax..

then was looking through maths test pp..and I realized I lost FIVE MARKS because of REAL STUPID MISTAKES lar!!!argh..i used zoom fit then zoom and my gc gave me the wrong shape for the graph lar...!!1mark gone lar!!then the stupid asymptote of the other graph cost me 4MARKS!! I wrote down the eqn of the asymptote after transformation..bt end up I din draw it in..and I gt all the pts correct leh!!bt then no marks given at all lar..stupid asymptote!!4marks leh!!?? Omg.....5stupid marks leh!! Then I was whining n complaining lar..then xingyue laughed at my whining lar..then she demonstrated what I did lar..then so funny lor..mk me kp laughing lar..haix..laughed all the way frm classroom block to the end of the sci block lar..bt shorter than juliet's de le..jux nw Juliet laughed all the way up the stairs from 2nd floor to the 5th floor lar..!!hahax..today is laughter day lar!!so funny!!hahax..


very long no new posts le!!nw finally gt abit of time to tok bout the many things tt hv happened!!yays!!
the past 2 wks so many tests lor..or rather tests for all the sub..so sianx..nw finally no more tests except for chem retest..sadx..haix..gt back 2 tests le..n results aren't gd!!!depressed lor..wads the pt of studying so hard and end up still get so bad de..............argh........really crossing my fingers and praying hard tt mux pass n do ok for the rest of the tests..if nt i'm going to be terribly depressed and not motivated anymore de!!!haix..kk..dun tok bout depressing stuff le..

had our 1st class bday celebration last wk..jb bday..bought a cake n gave him a surprise during chi lessons..we brought in the cake halfway during chi lesson..hahax..the chi teacher so nice lor..even let us eat the cake during lesson..hahax..then went out to clear the rubbish..n jb had 1 cake left for himself..then end up he started to mk us lar..bt in the end..i took the cake n smashed onto his face lar..hahax..=p then the whole floor all cake lar..so dirty..then there was a cleaner opp looking at us angrily lor..so we had to guai guai clear n clean up everything lar..hahax..


jiabing(with cake still on his face) n juliet..

erm..then last sat went to bugis with daphanie to shop...bought earing again..,4 earings!!hahax..also bought a shirt..a belt..wanted to buy so many other things de lor..gt so many nice things..esp earings!!bt mux save money for mother's day present le..mux buy for mother,auntie and grandmother leh!!hahax..really cant get enough of shopping de lor..bt nwadays dun hv much time to shop lor..sadx..
then aft tt went to kovan to meet kengx,bt n man for dinner..1 mth plus since we last meet up lar..haix..then aft tt went together to ny synergy concert..wanted to go early de bt end up late lor..and......we had to like sit seperately lar..so stupid lor..bt nvm..we were siting like the front few rows..so can see very clearly..the performances were ok lar..except for some..and saw a few quite ok looking de..thought kengs they all say nt shuai...another one then shuai..hahax..bt i'm attracted to tt someone..hahax..=p saw him tt day in canteeen with a big big bimbo bag??hahax..mk him look so gay lar..bt nvm..still shuai..hahax..


choir performance..weiling,juliet,wanlin and the 'monster'..hahax..

then was walking out to main gate le..then i saw tt someone......THEN kengx called me and suggested tt we shd tk photo..haix..hahax..so i walked back lar..
our photos..


us..with fake fireworks..hahax..


kengx n me..


man n me..


us again..=p

and sth very coincidental happened..hahax..i realised bt fren was someone i noe though nt very close..n daphanie fren was at the class bbq tt time..so can consider someone i noe..then daphanie fren and bt fren noe each other de..cux think 1st 3 mths they same og or cg lar..hahax..it's such a a small world lar..hahax..=p

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