never felt so helpless before,really..
never been in such a situation before,want so much to do sth,to help sotong shing..
but there's nth much we can do except to send her those msges,and trying to comfort her as much as we can..

knew he was in a critical condition already..and when i see shing's msg coming in..
i was rly scared..and when i read it..my heart really sanked..
it was already so hard for me to accept what i read..
cant imagine how pain and hard it would be for shing to accept it..

so xin tong for her..can feel her pain too..and tears welled..
because i can never imagine myself in her situation..
will never be as strong as she is..
but we all know,she have had a hard time these few months..
acting so strong infront of us and esp those who don't know anything..
putting up such a strong front,for her dad,for her mum..
can see her smiles and everything changed..
and up till now,not all sotongs know what happened..only 3 of us know..
and we really don't know how to help her..but to msg her and wait for her replies..

everytime asking her how is she and her dad..and she'll always say she's fine..
and she'll talk about her dad..
how he seem to be already counting his days..
how these few days he've been not rly conscious,and talking and behaving weirdly..
and all the things i hear her say,can really feel her pain and her helplessness..
she wants so much to do something,but cant..
telling me how the house seems so big and empty bec dad n mum are not around..
and i can only pray for her and tell her to stay strong,be postive for him..tell him not to think so negatively..

she said just didnt want dad to undergo anymore pain..he's so weak now,so kelian..
and she asked why is life so unfair..telling me life sucks,rly suck..
saying sometimes only when u are about to lose sth then u will learn to treasure..hao she bu de..she said..
and it's rly so xin tong to hear tt..

yes,why is life so unfair..
why must this happen to them so suddenly..and make them totally lost..
rmb hearing sotong chan talking on the ph w mum and dad,so happily,them asking her about supper,waiting for her to go home..and her calling them nicknames..
such a happy family,why must god let this happen to them and break them up..
dearest sotong going to grad soon le..and her dad cant even get to see it..and be proud of her and enjoy life a little..why is god so cruel..
last year end they just found out and they already couldnt do much,and this day their worst nightmare happened..
it all happened so quickly..the fragility of life..

know poor sotong rly suffered alot these past few months..
hanging on so tightly,strongly..
and throughout we could only say the same things to her..
and auntie vic and i don't know sigh-ed for how many times already,for being so helpess..cant help her remove any pain..
she's rly strong and wish she'll be even stronger for the journey ahead..cause it'll be tough..
so strong,she even told me,aft everything is settled..ask me pei her go buy swimsuit..and go jurong swimming pool play..
haix..
hate this feeling..

i wish life will be better for them,for their long journey ahead..

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