It's morn already.
But i didnt sleep at all.

Those same lessons again as tt day where i was to meet tt ahgong aft sch..
Rmb tt day..we were back hm late frm fren bday the previous day and still talked late..
Had sch the nx day,bt he gt off..tt ahgong said he'll call me to give me morn call..or just talk to me awhile in the morn..
I said dun need ah..bt tt ahgong wanted..
Rmb was on car and scared tt ahgong called,and mum would ask..
In sch already and was happily waiting..bt tt ahgong overslept..
Msg straight when he woke up..
Tt tues was so happy..bt tdy is so crazy..
Still rmb at the beginning,when we gt closer,talking on the ph..
Hw tt cute ahgong will ask..do u want me to msg u tml morn..
And i ask why..and he said sth like thought u would like..
Those were the happiest and sweetest days..

Today,opened my eyes and could feel them small,swollen.

So tired..
But i just couldnt slp on this day..

When i lie in that same darkness,on tt bed,in tt environ we once talked happily on the ph..
I closed my eyes,but my brain was so crazy..
So much was running through tt brain..
So crazy..i almost could 'feel' it..

Thought about all those things i wanted to do when tt ahgong goes over..wanted to nag at tt ahgong and make sure he take care of himself..wanted to write letters,wanted to talk to him evday,so many things.. but now i cant do anything at all..

Thought about all those promises we had..
Wanted so much to keep those promises tt the ahgong wanted me to make..
Wanted so much to do it all,tgt w tt ahgong..
Skype-ing evday,to get angry when i shd,so tt ahgong can cheer me up,ask me to xiao yi ge..
Why did the ahgong ask me to make those promises and break them like this..
Why didnt he keep his promises,to stand by me,tt ahpoh..
He knew promises meant sth,tts why asked me to make those promises..
But why didnt he fulfill all those promises we had,why didnt he give us the chance to keep those sweet little promises..
We cant even talk now,much less skype..
Why so crazy..



I rly cant tk it..
What's happening..:'(

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