Life is too short to wake up with regrets.
Love the people who treat you right.
Forget about the ones who don’t.
Believe everything happens for a reason.
If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands.
If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said life would be easy.
They just promised it would be worth it.

life is too short to wake up with regrets..
and yet i have to wake up every morn to that..and that pain..

i told u i saw this somewhere..told u i cant forget..
and because of that..
on that day that was supposed to be our first month,on that day that u were sick again..
i asked u to think about this again,because that ah poh rly wanted so much to try this,work this out with that ah gong..
because that ah poh really wanted to pei and hold hands with that ah gong,to walk this long journey tgt w him..
when we both knew it won't be easy right from the beginning..we talked about it and we still decided to try,then why did we give it up like that..


i sent u tt msg..
and u called sooo fast..i was so scared because i thought since tt ah gong called so fast..i guess i didn't manage to change his mind,again.
so scared to just lose tt ah gong like that..
i didn't dare to pick up the calls..

the day..first time someone missed call me so much,continuously..
and i had to try so hard,to type u a msg,to say that i guess i know ur ans already..
how u replied..
asking me to pick up,because u don't usually like to miss call ppl..saying u want to talk first..
and that silly ah gong counted..
12 calls before i finally picked up..

i decided to ask tt ah gong to think again because i didn't want to live my life with so much regrets..
because i didn't want us to give up because we just thought it'll be very hard..
for a reason that is thought to be,assumed to be and not what really will happen..
because that ah poh really like that ah gong..

but end up..i'm still waking up each day..to so much regrets..so much regrets..

so much things i wanted to do with that ah gong..
so much things i wanted to ask about that ah gong..
so much things i wanted to share,tell that ah gong..

thought it was supposed to be a long journey,our journey,our dream,and i could slowly know more,share..


when u were msgsing me when i was at the f1..
how i thought of wanting u to pei me go and watch,this year race..
or i could go visit u in melbourne,and we can watch that race there in mar..
or even sitting infront of the tv with u,watching any race will do..

when u said u liked jap food..
how ah gong likes rice,and that ah poh likes noodles..
how i thought of wanting to go and try all the jap restaurants with tt ah gong..
and now,whenever i see jap restaurants,i'll just rmb tt ah gong..

when that ah gong said he likes ice cream,and was craving it from time to time,even in the middle of the night,wanted mac delivery..
how i thought of wanting to go around trying out all the ice cream places w tt ah gong..

when we were sitting on that bench that first night..
how you were saying if only the view infront is the seaview..
how i thought of wanting to go to the beach with you..and just sitting there to rly enjoy the seaview,watching the sunrise or sunset..doesn't matter,as long as it's with that ah gong..

when u asked if i wanted to go bali with you..
how i thought of how nice it would be,to go bali with that ah gong..
how i wanted u to go hk disneyland with that ah poh..

how u were saying about going jogging..
how i thought of going jogging with that ah gong every wkend..
going to the beach,or anywhere..how nice is it..

how one day,over the ph,u said u wanted to slp beside tt ah poh..
how i thought of wanting to go picnic,camping overnight by the beach..
and lie beside each other,under the starry night sky..

how one time u were telling me about ur parents,their jobs..
how u told me,saying how you have difficult parents..
i saw how ur mum always check on u,heard how scary ur mum sounded when she nagged at u,bec of tt late night talk..saw how ur dad msged u to not go home so late..
how when we gt tgt already and u said dun let parents know first..
i said can we don't meet urs..bt actually i wanted to..
wanted to help tt ah gong have a better rs w his parents..
i was wondering what will happen if i met them..will they like me..
first time,i thought i can officially bring a bf home,and let my family see how gd he was..and maybe even meet bf's parents..i was so silly..why did i ask him..i've never ever regretted about sth for so long...and i rly hate myself..

how i wanted to just sit in ur car,again..
doesn't matter where we go,even if we got lost,even if we missed exits,even if we need to use gps again..doesnt matter..
just wanted to sit in that car,with tt ah gong..
helping u hold on to the ph,w the gps,and going places tgt..

how i was already thinking of what to do for u..for u to bring to melb..
how i was thinking of sending u off,how will it be like..will i cry..or will your hug do all the work..
how i was thinking of the things to do when u go over there already..

how i was thinking 4 years later..if only,4 years can pass faster..
because that ah poh really wanted to wait for that ah gong..

so many so many things..
but we'll never get the chance to do it..

and all can just remain as regrets and hurt..

and seeing his nick saying how he'll be leaving soon..
there's this pain inside me..this saddness..and tears just seem to come out..
how in his room,that ah gong was asking me if i'll be sad when he leaves..


i really want to see that ah gong once more..
i really want to talk to him once more..
i really want that hug once more..

can he just leave like that??
without telling or explaining anything..
without even checking on me..
why cant he do something..

why must he,how can he be so cruel to that ah poh...
will we be strangers forever..

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