today's 2nd of july,a saturday..

'How much does it hurt to miss someone that you know was the best thing that happened to you..'

what tt ahgong posted tt time,tt coincidental time..
'You can knock yourself out with all the stupid things that you have done and kill
yourself with the things that you have regretted doing but you cant hurt as much as missing someone that you know was the best thing that happened to you.'

keep thinking,since she said tt ahgong didnt see tt email then,then he cant be using
'my words' in the email,and post at such a coincidental timing,soon aft i sent him tt email..
then the person he's saying,that's hurt,tt's missing someone you know was the best thing tt happened to you,cant be saying he knows how i feels..
then it should be saying about himself,his own feelings??
for her,or cindy..
missing them??i dunno..

but i know how it feels like..
how hurt it feels like to miss someone that you know was the best thing that happened to you..
and then at the same time,feel that everything was a joke,and you should be hating tt person,instead of missing him..
how pain it feels like,but you just cant help it,to want to hate him,but still crazily miss tt person,those times..
tt ahgong,the times we spent tgt,and the journey we thought of walking tgt..
it's crazy,and it's a torture..
to keep telling myself,to throw away the feelings,not to miss someone tt did all the crazy things to tt ahpoh..



from that video,
"strangers,again",in a relationship there are like 7 stages..

'like most,we started off as strangers..'

stage 1:meeting.
stage 2:the chase.('some say it's the best part')
stage 3:honeymoon.
stage 4:comfortable.
stage 5:tolerance.
stage 6:downhill.
stage 7:breaking up.

the video is like~~
the jogging..like what tt ahgong wanted to do tgt..
the facebook..like what we started posting and commenting on each other's wall..
the ahgong first posted on my wall,using same words again,'work work work,3 consecutive off..'..and those things we posted on our first day..
the rushing to ph,late night calls..like how i always finish my stuff and wait for tt ahgong end work and call..our record,5am+..
the way they started,tt bench..like how we started too..sitting on a bench..tt scene so similar,like crazy..
the breaking up,i don't know..
and esp,we had some more 'stages' aft tt last stage..
her telling me 'exciting,crazy' stories..
and cont to hurt me,even aft tt last stage..


we rly started off as strangers,total strangers..
but we entered stage 1,in an unexpected way..
and we met,because of another stranger,a customer..
and then yes,there was a stage 2,very short though..
but it rly was the best part,short but such great impact..
and honeymoon??i don't know..one day??its crazy..
because after tt first day..i don't know what is what,what rly happened..

and i think we just skipped through all the stages..
and went right to the last stage..
from honeymoon,right to break up..
how great is that,how great is tt diff in feelings..
from great happiness,to crazy pain,saddness..
when honeymoon wasnt even long to begin with,and it went right into last stage..
so funny..
so crazy..
who'll have such a rs..
only me i guess,silly me..

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