sotong gathering on wed..
since sotong sy missed out the last gathering when wh told us about getting attached..
so obviously gossipy sy finally gt to ask wh about it..
aft ahma told her the other time tt she missed out juicy news..
sotong wh just broke up w the guy,who is also our jc classmate..
and also sy sec classmate..

they were tgt like 3yrs+..
still rmb tt time when we got to know about it,everybody was rly shocked..
tt time when we all went back ny to watch baiyungang performance..
sotong wh said she'll be bringing him..
and bef meeting him,she told us about what tt guy did..
and we all didnt expected it to be him,our classmate!
rmb we were totally shocked to see them coming tgt..and we were outside lt..
they went in,the rest of the class saw,and we heard screams of shock from inside!
yar,totally shocked and they seemed so good tgt..
sotongs were still saying waiting for their wedding..and wh will have 7 sotongs jiemeis..and of course will make it diff for him,our fren too..
but now..after 3 yrs+..
and the prob persisted throughout,wh said..
but he didnt change..

and now,just about 2 mths+,she's w this new guy..
her close fren in her other clique,or brother she felt..
she nv knew about his feelings all along..until she broke,then he told her..
and the 2 guys knew each other somehow..
so its so 'crazy'..and when wh posted her status on fb..
obviously,her ex wasnt happy..and posted bad stuff too..

i know how he feels..
its almost about the same as what i went through..
just maybe so much more simpler,and rly innocent stuff..
but the fact is,she got into another rs,just too fast..
someone who she just regarded as a close fren,her bro and no feelings then..
not saying its wrong or wad,its her rs,and its up to sotong to decide..
just feel bad for tt guy..
the time they were tgt wasnt short..
and she ended it,and got over it so fast smhw?and be w someone else..
yes,i guess if anyone were in her shoes,they would have accepted the guy too..
bec of all the things he crazily did..

just dun rly like to hear and imagine hw pain it'll be for tt guy..
cux i'll be reminded of mine..how bad it was..and up till now it still is..
wh wouldnt know..how much pain she put him through..
she was still saying about how he keep posting on fb now talking about his outings,his happening life..to 'show' her smhw..
and wh gave tt irritated look..
but i guess she rly dunno how he feel..
it's rly crazy..
yes,it was tt guy's fault smhw..but the least she could do..
was maybe hide it from him for awhile more..till he's quite ok already..

and then wh suddenly talk about him,the last him..
saying didnt know he's attached..
and ahma said,it was v long ago le ah..
i knew long time ago,bec he was the one who told me..
and since then,i never talked to him,or see him face to face,even though he comes over to give my bro tuition up till now..
yes,not all sotongs know about tt him n me,only ahma know abit..
or maybe they all suspected..but no one rly knew what exactly happen..
tt's how pathetic and bad it was..
but whenever they say about him,i still feel tt awkwardness..
they'll just talk about him,but i wont say anything,just keep quiet and acting like nth's wrg..
and they cont talking about him,i just pretended cant rly hear..
xh was rly concerned tt time about tt ahgong n me..and we exchaged glances,and i just looked away quickly..
i didnt want them to know,tt i haven forget about tt ahgong and leave it behind..
don't want them to know,tt i still think of tt ahgong and miss him..
don't want them to know,tt scar is so deep,it's not recovered..

tt trauma..tt fear..
make me hate to listen to rs stuff..
even kengx have been telling me about her n this guy..
and i still had to give her advice smhw,happily..
listening and smiling..
i rly hated to hear all these..
but they're all my frens..and i have to face it..
i just could only,hear it,smile,joking,and hide the crazy pain inside..
and pretend,i'm ok,since long ago..
how hard it is..how crazy..
they all dont know..
but just wishing tt it'll turn out good for them..
and i guess no one will be so 'unlucky' like me,to get in such a mess..
when all tt ahpoh wanted was just so simple..but she got into such a great mess..
messing up her life..
why is it so easy and simple for others..just like wh..
why did i let myself get hurt..


had free tics for voyage de la vie..
and sy wanted to watch..
so i had to go watch it again..
brought her guy fren along..and i just tried to shun smhw..
didnt rly want to intro or talk..
even when we talk,dun rly want to look him in the face..
so scared smhw already..

aft tt,alcoholic sy suggested go find ahma at work,alleybar..
and ahma's expression was super funny when sy popped right infront of her at the counter..
so we drank..
and sy suddenly asked..
so how are u and tt guy..
did he leave already..
i was stunned for awhile..
and ans what can happen btw us..
he left long ago ah..
laughing it out..

pretending,dont want her to know i haven fully recover..
pretending it doesnt matter anymore..
when i still look through the pics in my phone..
esp our first pic tgt..
silly silly silly..

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