hols been great so far..packed..
went out w sotong shing last week..
and went w her to visit her grandma..
and also visited auntie vic/physiotherapist neo at work w her stethoscope around her neck like a doc!
guess she's enjoying her job even though its tiring and tough,but the satisfaction she gets from it is so much more than the physical tiredness..

envy her to be able to get such satisfaction,and wondering will i get tt kind of satisfaction in my job next time,what kind of satisfaction..
because satisfaction in a job,will be such great motivation for work..
i rmb i had some sort of satisfaction when working at sh,helping cust solving their prob,explaining to them the things they didnt understand..
and at the end of it,just a simple thank you,and you can hear it from their voice..
that's simple satisfaction from tt job..
and it did gave me motivation to go to work,when i got tired and frustrated of the job and the com system..
and bec of it,somehow made me cont to stay on..
satisfaction and motivation really helps alot..
and i just wonder about what i look for in my future job..
what kind of satisfaction to expect..
as we get nearer and nearer to graduating..


visited shing's grandma..
shing told me about how grandma seem to be fine sometimes,and then sometimes she'll say weird weird things..
like complaining to nurse tt there's a fire,or floods..
she already got to know bout what happened to her 2 sons..
and i guess she's rly strong..dunno what she's thinking inside when she know about it..or does she rly know,understand..

tt day she seemed ok..
when we asked if she ate..
she ans in a funny way..
saying she ate her lunch already,but not dinner..
the nurse heard,and said,it's not dinner time yet,of course won't have dinner ah..
other than tt she seemed ok..din say weird weird stuff..
bought tau huey for her to eat..
and she also ate the jellies i made for shing n vic..
so cute looking at her eat..shing was joking saying she dont have alot teeth left..

and saw those other patients/grandmas there..
as their wards were being cleaned..
the grandmas were all sitting along the corridor waiting..
and they were all rly rly old..
some were rly bad tempered..
and it was funny looking at them..how the nurse fed them food..
some kept wanting this and that..and some refused to eat..
like this ahma,the nurse fed her bread dipped in milo,and she didnt totally bite,so the bread was 'hanging' at her mouth there..
until it was about to break off,then then nurse tried to 'catch it'..
and tt ahma,showed a smile..
and this other ahma..
kept calling ppl walking past..telling them,today's monday..
shing said the last time she was there for one hr,and she called her 10 times,telling her it was monday..
so cute,but rly pity them..

no one was visiting them at tt time..
and i rly wondered if anyone did visit them..
they were all so old,and weak..
were they all still thinking properly..
and it's so ke lian to like just be sitting there,lying there the whole day,waiting for time to pass by just like that..
and i just wonder how will it be like,when we all become so old..
so old and weak until we have to be in the hospital like this..
no one to care for us,and all we can do is just sit and lie there..
waiting for our time to be up..
it's so scary..


then we went to watch kungfu panda 2..
and at some point both of us fell aslp..
for slping so late the previous night..
and shing said,i rly wanted to watch,but my eyes just closed..

didnt rly want to watch..but there werent much choices..
and we wanted to kill time,to wait for auntie vic end work n dinner tgt..
it'll just remind me of tt person bef tt ahgong..
tt time out to celeb my bday,we watched some movie and then saw the adv and was waiting to watch kungfu panda 1..
in the end,so much happened,like always..
but it was nth compared to tt ahgong..
it was before tt ahgong,quite some time ago,and less hurt..
but up till now,i still havent totally forget,sometimes i still think about what happened..
so how long will it take for me to forget tt,and then tt ahgong's..
it is already so hard for tt..
how much harder,longer,will it be for tt ahgong..


and in the movie..
there was a sentence,sth like 'it's about the rest of the story,till the end..'
how many times do we have to tell ourself it's about the rest of the story,if bad things keep happening..
life isnt that long..if we keep saying that..
and simply forget,let go of the bad past..
then wouldnt our life be like 'shorten' so much..
and will the future,really be good..
if all we care is our 'the rest of the story'..


i really wish its good..
i really wish this is the last time that i have to tell,convince myself that it's about the rest of the story,till the end..

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