watched the movie love in disguise by wang leehom on scv ytd..
and one of the soundtrack for the movie is the song 你不知道的事..
a very nice and touching song,beautiful lyrics..had stars in it too..
and always liked songs w piano playing..
rmb last year auntie vic watched the show and asked me to listen to the song..
i did..and got 'addicted' and kept listening to it then..

and one time i esp rmb,i was listening to it..
and tt ahgong called..and asked what i was doing..told him was listening to tt song..
but i guess he didnt rly catch the song name..
dunno why but i just remembered tt moment he called when i was listening to tt song..
and i rmb i muted the vol and talk to him..then turn it on again,softer..
cant rly rmb wad we talked tt particular time..
just rmb the song and rmb was chatting w fren online for awhile at the same time..
so it was like we werent rly talking much..
just like simply holding on to the ph..so simple..but happy..
then i think he started playing his guitar and singing..

at tt time..i heard the song..i didnt rly listen real hard to the lyrics of the song and the meaning of it..
but after all the bad things happened..i listened it again..
and i wished the lyrics could be saying,explaining about what tt ahgong was doing..
对不起 我却没捉紧你
你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里

somehow it did sound abit like what tt ahgong did..
sending auntie vic tt msg about how bad he had hurt me,deliberately..
so tt i'll forget him..
told auntie vic,but didnt want her to show me,didnt want me to know..
just let me be,even though he knew how much pain i was..
asking auntie vic to take care of me real well..
and he'll never turn back..
狠下心..were the exact words i once told him..
tt if he decided not to try..i'll 狠下心 and forget him..
but he knew i wouldnt be able to do it..
and he turned around to be the one to 狠下心 and do this to me,'help' me forget him..
i hated it..really hated..

'你不知道我为什么狠下心..'
i really wished there was some reason,some other reasons behind everything..
to explain why that ahgong can cruelly do this,all these,and become such a completely different person in such a short time..
but i always told myself it wasnt possible..
what other reasons can there be..
it was only about her..
it's so disgusting to think further..
i really dont know..

and esp tt time..can never forget what jean told me..had such a great impact on me..
'I know.u always believed that he was a good guy esp because you know his past and everything. but maybe because he's a good guy,so he wants to protect u because he likes u.maybe that's why he's doing this.sometimes when u like a person,you'll do things that you think is protecting the person but you won't really think like whether or not the person wants to be protected,right?'

how much i wished the song and what jean said could be true to a certain extent..
but i guess i'll never know..not even the truth..


aft tt show,watched 2012..
rmb watching it w cousins..but still it was nice to watch again..
and with so many predictions recently about when the world will end..
made the movie seemed 'scarier'..
and last week out w family and cousins..
forgot what we talked..ended up talking about end of world..
and my cousins believed about the 2012 prediction..
the world ending on 21/12/12..
one of my cousin bday,and her sis was still joking bout her bday being end of the world..
they were saying why cant we cfm if tt rly is the end of the world,and we can do things we like to do,dont need study,etc..

and i did think about what if the world was ending..
what would we like to do..
i would want to go travelling around to the places i havent been..
spend time w family..so many things to do..
i like kids so much..
and one pity is tt i wont get to have any children of my own,watch them grow up,teaching them things,wont have my own family..
but we rly wont know,or predict when's the world ending..
so we still have to cont living our norm lives..
but if the world is rly going to end next year end,like maybe sudden major earthquakes,floods..


i sillyly,foolishly thought..if tt day come..and before i die..
i would want to try calling that ahgong,and hear him for the last time,and calling him ahgong for the last time..
and maybe hear 'ahpoh' the last time..and tell him all the things i want to say..



王力宏 - 你不知道的事

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你
你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

我飞行 但你坠落之际
你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

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