i think i had the most sound slp ytd since dunno how long ago..
from all the accumulated tiredness the past few crazy months..
slp until the first time ever,my blanket was on the floor..
don't know how i slp until it was on the floor..
always cover properly and hang on,hug the blanket somehow and slp w it..
never once the whole blanket drop..maybe one of my many pillows can drop,but not the blanket..
drop until i didnt know until it got rly cold..
how tired was i..
and mum wake me up to ask me go out..and i cont slping..until she called me again..
and i still asked her calling me or my sis..she said me..and i still asked wake up for wad,go where..when i promised aunt to go help her w moving tdy..
and i cont slping in the car,slp so well until i even had dreams..

should i be happy for myself,so tired all these times,from everything,all the crazy happening,studying,etc..
never never been so tired before..physically and mentally..
but i hanged on and survived till now..
am i stronger now..
i guess not..



i act like it wasnt a big deal anymore,when it really still is breaking my heart..
everyday i smile and act like nothing's wrong..
but it's called putting everything aside and simply being strong..
behind my smile is everything you'll never understand,no one truly will..
because up till now,only that ahgong truly made me smile so much more,than anyone else did..

that ahpoh's smile will never be the same and won't have the same meaning anymore..

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