we have a new addition to the family..

my sis guinea pig is mickey..

the new hamster is minnie..

we were at the shop looking at all of them..

all were so cute..

then,chose this poor little one because it was being chased by another hamster until she had to climb up the wooden house..the person was telling us because the other hamster was v protective of its territory..

and the person name was william tan.

how great.

everywhere i go.

just have to remind me of things i dun wan to think of..

even though i keep thinking of him..

not that 'bad him'..but that him,that ah gong that i know of..

getting a hamster tgt w tt ah gong was sth that i wanted..

thought it'll be so nice if we can have a little pet tgt..

even thought of names..so dumb..

thought when he goes aust,i can take care of the hamster and she can pei me when that ah gong's nt ard..

yes..so silly, how i don't hate him..not angry with him..

when everybody is scolding him,telling me,now u should noe how he's rly like..how bad is he..

instead,i just cant believe,totally cannot believe..

just don't understand why he did all these..how he can do it..because it's really not him.

i guess everybody else saw the situation better than me..

my fren said i'm like very pure..so untouched by the evils and cruelty in the world.

to the extent that i don't even know how to hate someone..

is that a gd thing or bad thing i don't know..

but i guess its both..

thanks to her..

first time ever, i got to know how the world really is like..

first time to know,how it feels like to be backstabbed,by someone i thought was a friend..

how i should not so easily trust people,befriend people..

never judge ppl by their appearance.it's deep inside that we cant see..and they hide it so well..

cause like what my friends are telling me,there will always be selfish people out there that only care about themselves,never think about others,even their friends..

where they know they're wrong,but they just does it anyway because that's all where their self worth comes from..

and it's pathetic that they live in such a world,that revolve only around themselves..

and it's only until now,did i know that there really are such people out there,and it scares me..

and i pity them..their friends..

jean asked me out for retail therapy tdy..

and was telling me how she felt bad..

for not telling me earlier how that girl was like..

since she used to go out w her more and she told her stuff that showed what kind of girl she really is..

but i guess it doesn't matter whether or not i know how she's really like..

the fact is,i was too naive,too innocent,too nice and i saw wrongly..

the fact is,what goes around,comes around..

so what if we knew how she's rly like,she'll have done it still..and there's nth we can do..

and it takes two hands to clap too.he did it too.but i don't know why.don't know how.

she knew about us,telling others but not me that he's a bad guy,and even asked jean how was things btw me and him..but she still could do it..

so what if we knew..

just wonder what is she thinking inside..how does she live with it..is she really happy..

it's just so scary..to know how people can really be like..the harsh realities of life..

how my fren is saying some ppl get too carried away with their own selfishness that they don't even realise that they're digging their own graves...

she doesnt have friends. she only has tools at her disposal..

i saw her as a friend,i even pitied her becux of her last rs, but i guess she saw me as nth,she doesn't even bother..

or maybe she didn't know anything at all??

what hurts the most..

is that ah gong..how could that ah gong that the ah poh believed in so much,done something like that..

guess,i was too innocent to think that the world isn't so bad..

because i haven't really seen the real world..

but now, i know..