holidays are finally here..bt i dun feel excited or happy at all now..everything hv been very depressing lar..still very bothered bout the dream..scared it really will happen soon lar..nt becux i'm scared of death or wad..is jux tt i really really cant bear n very scared to leave everyone...very scared hw my family will feel if the dream really happen....haix....wad can i do to forget the dream.....hv been trying very hard to forget things i dun wish to rmb..bt nth seems to work..i cant forget...esp forgetting some ppl..when i'm trying to forget tt someon..tt person suddenly appear infront of me on the bus lar...n my heart almost stopped for a sec...n it really hurt!though i tried to pretend as if nv see him to avoid the unnecessary embarrasement..think he saw me ba..think he noe i pretended lk nv see him..feel very bad..bt it would hv been really very awkward de lor..really wanted to hide myself tt very moment lar..bt couldn't do anything except for pretending tt i nv see him...y mux this happen to me..y cant everything jux end like tt..y mux it still be so coincidental??almost gt caught up with the previous bus de..bt in the end still missed it..hw gd would it be if i've taken tt previous bus!!the other time also missed the same previous bus n saw him!!why why why why why is this happening when we were NV NV MEANT TO BE TOGETHER?or is this nt the ending yet..??impossible..bt then y is these still happening..really hope tt i can forget everything...n let EVERYTHING come to an end......

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