sotong shing's graduating..
and her convocation's tml..xh's sat..
so happy for them..

so fast..
we entered jc tgt..
5 years past,and now,they're already graduating from uni and getting rdy to enter the work society..
shing got 2 tics,and her mum and sis are going for the ceremony tml..
if her father is still around,i'm sure he'll go..
but i guess,sotong's daddy chan will be looking down from above,and will be smiling,and be so proud of his daughter..


sotong needed to get shoes for tml..
so we went to shop ard town..
and ended up she wanted to treat me dinner for pei-ing her get interview clothes the other time,and tdy,shoes..
and...

she brought me to santouka,cuppage..
since she know the ppl there cux her work frens from central outlet transf over there..so we got so much free food..
or rather,i showed the way,since sotong is rly blur..
cause she got lost finding her way from orchard mrt to far east..

i dun rly know the directions ard orchard well also..
but,just rmb how i walked from ps,to cuppage,to orchard w tt ahgong..
we were at far east,orchard..
so it was 'walking backwards'..
thinking of where we walked pass,what we did,to figure out how to walk..
cant helped but rmb everything..

and sotong asked how i know there..
and i said ate w fren there bef,fren brought me there..
kept asking who,why nv go central de and find her tt time..
and i said bec it was w tt ahgong,we went movie at douby ma,so go nearby..
she asked why he know santouka..is santouka so famous..
and i said,cause tt ahgong likes jap food ma..
sotong know i didnt want to say much..

restaurant was almost full..
didnt get to sit tt corner table..
and i cant help but turn and stare at tt corner table..
while eating,put my legs on the thingy of the chair again..
the cha shu i dont like,couldnt give to sotong,cause sotong couldnt eat it w her braces,like how i gave to tt ahgong..

then walked to douby..
stared at those seats outside..

always liked to go to daiso to get random stuff,and also those handicraft stuff..
but havent went there since the last time i was there w tt ahgong,on our first day..
didnt dare to go in..
but we went in tdy..
and remembered tt moment while we were queueing..
smhw our first and only little 'shopping'..for tt ahgong's staples..
also,tt glutton ahgong still bought those smhw kiddish cartoon cans sweets..
aft tt trying to open it,and used diff stuff to open..
rmb on the escalator..
tt chippy's store,tt place where we stand at to eat..
tt mrt ride home,tt walk home..
everything..


tt new drama..
the girl inside who got dumped was saying about re-visiting places she's gone w her bf,to smhw try to face it,feel the pain,and then can forget easier..
but it's so crazy..
every step you take,stepping over those footprints,wishing you can replace them..
is like,rly a huge needle poking through your heart..
really so pain..
pain until it 'wakes' you up,gives you goosebumps..
reminding you,and 'refresh' your memory,and making you remember all those memories..

so pain now,but those memories were so sweet,then..



'Saw shooting star..ephemeral;short lived yet so amazingly beautiful..so beautiful,but i have to question myself if i really saw it.'


seeing a shooting star,is like the time spent w tt ahgong,tt rs we had..
ephemeral;so short lived,so short time tgt..
yet so amazingly beautiful,so sweet until it's unreal like a dream,the best time of my life..

but,what happened aft tt,and her story,destroyed tt sweetest dream and made it into the craziest nightmare..
and i had to ask myself,whether the time where i thought was the best time of my life,was really real or not..
whether did i really had such a beautiful memory..
whether was i really so lucky smhw,to have the sweetest dream,to get to know tt ahgong,and to be tt ahpoh..
it was short,but i rly wish it was rly as simple and beautiful as a shooting star..
wishing it was all real,and really pure,true simple happiness..


but i cant be sure,i dont know anything,and it's so pathetic..
the feeling that you think you had sth,but then having to re-think again to ask yourself again,are you sure..
is just crazy..

you'll never have an answer,cause it's a vicious cycle.

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